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I am wild. I am human. I am female. I am a woman, but I may also be something else. I am dominant, and a sadist. I am a masochist.

I don’t believe in Empire. I don’t believe in capitalism. I believe my sex and my gender have been ruthlessly oppressed by Civilization. I believe I may be something other than a woman, but I’m not quite sure what that is. I believe I am dominant in rebellion to the default dominance of males and men in my native culture. I believe I am a sadist because my native culture has eroticized violence against females and women, and as a child I rebelled and eroticized violence against males and men. I have no clue why I’m a masochist, but it’s great physical therapy.

I feel the need to listen to birds chatter and crickets sing and frogs chorus, to watch deer and bears and opposums, listen to grasses and climb trees and grow vegetables. I feel the need to touch other humans and be in relationships with them. I feel the desire to bear, nurture, love, and protect children down to my very bones. I feel the desire to provide food, shelter, water, clothing, and safety for my family, to protect them and to prepare for them in my muscles, in my flesh. I feel the need and the desire to have a man surrender himself to me as an act of trust and love. I feel the desire and the need to hurt him, and for him to want it also. I feel the desire for rough handling, though I don’t know why.

I’m young. Ridiculously young. I’m trapped, and trying to worm myself free. I love sarcasm and silence, skills and the skilled, patience and body-language, horses and dogs and men and women, I love making things, and being called on my shit and being taken as I am, not as others want me to be.

Hi! My gender amalgamation is

animal, childless, daughter, dominant sadist, female, granddaughter, human, pansexual, polyamorous, provider, storyteller, submissive-loving, unmated, wild, woman

What’s yours?